Finding faith.

Trying to find faith tonight has been the hardest it has in months.

"Stay strong now, because things will get better.

It might be stormy now, but it can't rain forever."

Psalms 62:7 God is my salvation and my glory:

the rock of my strength, and my refuge, is in God.

 Exodus 15:2 The LORD is my strength and my song; he has become my salvation.

 He is my God, and I will praise him, my father's God, and I will exalt him.

Isaiah 41:10 Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

Philippians 4:13 I can do all things through him who strengthens me.

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I'm happy, so stfu.

I DO NOT GIVE A

FLYING FUCK

if you don't like my fucking boyfriend.

Chances are, I don't fucking like you.

"He changed you durrrdurrrrrr I'm a dumb skank"

Lol sorry you're jealous that I'm actually hanging out with someone who makes me happy. Maybe if you weren't a piece of shit friend, I would hang out with you. I've never ditched anyone for Isaac, ever. Sorry that we sometimes make plans the previous day before, and I'm not gonna ditch him, just like I don't ditch anyone else.

If you have an opinion about my relationship,

do yourself a favor,

and shove it up your ass.

Because I honestly could not care less what you have to say.

And I'll rip you a new ass hole if you wanna whine about it because

I guarentee

you haven't made an attempt to hangout with me in the last two months, other wise we would have hung out.

If you "miss me" so damn much, you could possibly trying talking to me,

 Instead of talking about me.

☮

Lol @ pissy blogs & annoying fake friends.

I love my boyfriend. :)

The past

The past is such an evil thing.

It threatens and even ruins the future.

Life would be so much easier, if the past was more easily forgotten.

Life would be so much easier, if people would forgive their pasts.

Life would be so much easier, if people lived in the present, instead of the past.

Yesterday is yesterday.

Last week is last week.

Last year is last year.

Today is today.

I feel like everyone needs to get that clear. Nothing that happens in the past, should effect your happiness today, because that's exactly what it is: the past.

It happened, it's over. So lie your head down, and let it be. Because no effort will ever change it.

I've been crying for like two hours, because the past is threatening my future. And it shouldn't be.

It's amazing how much past experiences can scare someone. It terrifies a person to the point they push away happiness in the present, for fear that it will only repeat past unhappy experiences. Because something good has turned bad in the the past, many people think it will continue in the same pattern in the future,

which is not true.

I've worked so hard to let my past go and accept it, and I wish others in my life would to.

"Forgiveness is such a simple word,

but it's so hard to do when you've been hurt."

MAKE PEACE,

LET GO.

<3

Fake Friends

"I would rather have no friends,

than fake friends."

I cannot express effectively how fucking sick I am of having fake friends.

I do the best I can to stick up for my friends, no matter what. It's absolutely irritating, watching someone I stick up for,have no backbone to stick up for themselves. It's like honestly, if someone fucked you over, why are you now bestfriends?

Everyone complains about people not being real, when really, they're fake themselves. I don't understand why people let others walk all over them, but then have the nerve to complain about it. So, I'm done sticking up for people who don't stick up for themselves, because it is honestly a waste of my time.

So here I am, on a Saturday night,

alone

watching television

eating cheez-it's.

But hey, at least I'm not out, with people who talk shit about me, don't appreciate me, and use me like most of my friends are.

So like I said, I'd rather have NO friends than FAKE friends.

Because I have a backbone and self respect.